Nodame Cantabile

i have been watching nodame cantabile recently and i was amazed by the animation it's about music! i have always been a lazy person slouching around and i rarely rehearse but seeing the anime playing Beethoven, Chopin, Debussy, Bach, Rahmaninov, and others make me motivated to be like them so i started to rehearse daily...
i wanted to make changes and i wanted to be able to play fur elise, the entertainer, moonlight sonata....and so much more
i have a habit that i don't like to look at scores i like to memorize them and play and i make mistakes.... i think the mistakes can be a serious mistake like my third concert, i stop halfway because i was too nervous and i couldn't remember anything. Embarrassing!!! i don't want it to happen again....

Sick

4 days until the flight day everything has been uncontrolable, i'm sick like hell!!! 38.5 degree celcius is not cool at all! miracally i'm not dizzy... i just know the cause of the fever.. it is cause by a tooth! yea a tooth! just a baby tooth that wanted to come outta my gums so badly it gave me a damn fever!
i just hope the cough and runny nose would end before the day of the flight......
*cough*